Decisions

I've always wanted to write a book, a personal life story about the journey I've traveled.  Not to make it big, have a best seller or gain tons of money from it (although the money would be SWEET!), but more so to be able to give something to my children that allows them to see our journey through my eyes and know how much I love them. 

Recently, I've been reading this blog; "http://forwardwalking.com/

Very interesting blog that has several authors contributing to it's posts with a common theme running throughout, walking forward in life, with whatever it brings you.  In the past few months I've really enjoyed reading the inspiration, defeats...observing from the outside and confirming to myself that I'm not the only one with hard obstacles overcoming my paths.  One post asks to hear from the readers, to hear of what trials or obstacles life has brought them and how they have continued to walk forward. 

I've been seriously debating on sending in something short that tells my story.  It's a lot to think about, some very painful memories.  Not sure if I want my story out there when it comes right down to it.  I've stubbornly fought to never have the events in my life be a secret, as I know from experience that secrets ruin lives, but some events are so private and need to handled with care.  Judgements of others would be certain. 

Thought:

"All thoughts are energy forms,

it's your interest or association with the thoughts,

that make them obsessive."

Thought:

"Watching the mind"....

is the root of awakening,

from the illusion of the mind.

Just Because

I received these beautiful flowers at work the other day and honestly I was momentarily bewildered why anyone would be sending me flowers!  Randy has never sent me flowers, although he ALWAYS brings me home flowers.... the best kind, from the grocery store!  (It's funny, I've always thought that it's a waste to spend so much money on flowers purchased from a floral shop because it's so expensive, the flowers eventually die anyways and you can get just as nice looking flowers from the grocery store for much cheaper.  In fact, I've even said; "one single flower is better too".)  I thought for a moment, could these be from some guy that I dated long ago who maybe didn't know I'd gotten remarried?  Maybe they were from a client...sometimes, more rare though, it happens.  My mom has sent me flowers before but usually for a special occasion.  I opened the box and inside were this beautiful bunch of day lilies.  I immediately grabbed the card;

"I saw these flowers and had to get them for you...hope you like them!  Thanks for loving me and for being the kind of wife and mother you are... I feel so very fortunate to have you in my life!

Love Randy"

I have the sweetest, most kind husband.  For no particular reason at all, he was thinking of me.  Not just thinking of me but making sure to let me know it.  It feels so good, reassuring, protective and loving to have someone treat you so well.  I love my Randy!

We were able to get out of town for Spring Break and went to Las Vegas!  Camryn, Mckelsie and Jayden were able to go this time.  Brendan was on Spring Break with Grandma and Grandpa Archibald and Carter had school (his Spring Break was the week before).  It was so nice to get away and spend some time with the kids!  We went swimming at the Wyndham Resort, spent time on the Strip shopping, squeezed in a movie, got into a magic/comedy show, saw the Neon Sign Museum and ate lots and LOTS of good food!  It was wonderful to see and feel the nice warm sun too! 

Piano

We recently purchased a used piano off KSL.com and I particularly have LOVED listening to My Randy play it.  I have always enjoyed the piano and have wanted to learn how to play myself so I couldn't contain my excitement when we got it into the house in one piece!  I love watching Randy practice and could sit for a very long time and admire his ability to make such beautiful music. I love that he likes me to watch and listen even though it makes him nervous.  I adore that guy!

(I am planning to take lessons, Mckelsie and I together.  On the waiting list!)

Random Kindness

Getting out of bed seems to be almost an impossible event most mornings for me and this morning was no different, however, I'd braved the day and was shifting anxiously in the elevator of the building I work at.  My stomach was churning and my heart racing for the stress filled day and I was trying to tell myself that it would be a "good day" when I stepped out onto my floor.  Directly across the hall from the elevator sits a work area that is surrounded by inept windows allowing hallway walkers to peer into their work space.  I looked up through the windows, stepping out onto the white hospital floor, and smiling from behind the glass was this lady whom I only know from having seen her in the building and briefly speaking to her while waiting for the cook in the cafeteria to finish up my lunch one afternoon.  She smiled and waived hello, very quick and unassuming.  How kind.  She didn't even know how much I needed that smile, how much it meant to me that she cared enough to raise her hand with a wave hello and a sincere smile. 

Since this day a few weeks ago, she's appeared in the windows several times while I pass and everytime we meet eyes she says hello through the glass with a wave of her hand and another sincere smile and I gratefully smile and wave back.  I still have yet to speak to her again outloud and I doubt in my current awkward, anxious state I will tell her how much I appreciate her kindness, although I probably should. 

Thank goodness for people that care enough to show a little random kindness... it meant more to me than she'll ever know!